Nursing at 14.5 Months

No matter which direction my nursing relationship takes from here, I just have to keep telling myself that I will have nursed Eleanor for at least 15 months, and that is AWESOME. 

You did it, me.  Good job.  Whatever happens from here, you did that and it's a FACT. BabyCenter awarded you the "platinum boobs".  That means you've really made it.

It's not that I want breastfeeding to end.  I feel guilty sometimes, though, for wanting my body to be just a bit more my own.  Sometimes when I realize that we are dropping feedings, I think that it is more than OK. But then the next day I panic thinking that I am one step closer to the final nursing session EVER with Eleanor!!  Got to recommit, refocus.

Mostly, though, I think that the fact that I am pumping less and less at work each day is OK.  I can still feed Ellie in the mornings and at night, and when she needs comforting.  I could keep that up for a long, long time.  Eleanor isn't as interested, so I know I shouldn't feel guilty.  She is feeling independent these days, and that's a good thing!  I know that I'm just hanging on to the last vestiges of my little newborn.  But Eleanor brings me new joy every day.  I love you so much, my little boo!!!

Breastfeeding my little toothless baby!

Still breastfeeding my toothy big girl who eats everything!